Friday, December 27, 2013
Friday, December 20, 2013
Sunday, December 15, 2013
God is good. This is why. When you have a special needs child, life is different. But, sometimes you forget that your life is different. For example, yesterday L was making a whole bunch of crazy, silly noises. Not unusual for him. It's not all the time but happens most often when he's playing hard at home. But, for some reason, maybe because I was in the middle of making over 4 dozen cookies and a pan of magic bars it caught my attention (it doesn't always) and well, sometimes quite frankly, it's annoying. And to be brutly truthful, we do not live in an ASD (Austim Spectrum Disorder) world. So, I do feel it's our responsibility to train him up in the way he should go, both Biblically and emotionally as much as I an possibly do. So, I tell him, "L, stop. That's annoying." And he does. For a minute. And then well, it tends to blend into my psyche and I don't hear it.
Last week we had leaps and bounds of a major breakthrough with him. Our children's Christmas program at church. Our kids do two services. One at 9 am and again at 11 am. Well, we decided what would be best for him, would be one show. 11 am. We had seats as close to the stage as possible, in case he needed to be walked away quickly. The reason why this was such a breakthrough was not long ago, 6 months maybe, his end of the year concert at school he was all over the place. I was sitting in my seat crying on the inside wondering why in the world neither his gen ed or especially his ASD teacher were doing anything. So, mama bear rose up in me. I got out of my seat, walked in front of a crowd of at least 100 people and stood their with my child. Holding his hand. His shoulders. Reminding him to stand still. Trying to get him to participate with his neurotypical peers. Finally on the last song, he did.
Fast forward 6 months to last week, L stood on stage by himself, with only the occasional rub on the back reminders from one of the (awesome) adult actors on stage to turn around. He hammed it up. Waving to people. Giving thumbs up to his dad. He sang every song. Stood when he was supposed to. Sat when he was supposed to.
Then what came after I was not prepared for. The comments from adults. A good friend said her husband leaned over and said "hey L is up there". My baby blended in with NT friends. For a special needs mom, this is HUGE. Our children's pastor's wife, with tears in her eyes, said she didn't know who she enjoyed watching more, L or us watching L.
Compliments on from all of our friends only encourages me to continue to fight for him and be his advocate. Because I know HE CAN DO IT!!! He's shown us he can!!!
Our church, what a blessing. I'm so thankful for the time and sheer energy they put into him. I hope we are doing the same by pouring into their kids when we work our weeks in kidmin.
So to all of you that had compliments, thank you. It drives me to keep pushing him. Keep pushing through red tape when it happens. Keep pushing for things he deserves and needs. He is constantly getting better with time. And most of all, with God's Hand!!!
Friday, December 13, 2013
Friday, November 29, 2013
Saturday, November 23, 2013
Friday, November 15, 2013
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Sunday, November 3, 2013
8 years ago today, I had THE scariest day of my life. When I thought I was losing my child I prayed as best I could, joked around to keep my very high blood pressure down as much as I could and when people found out what was happening prayer was spreading like wild fire. Even someone who didn't know what was going on, had a notion to pray for me at a certain time that day and it was the exact time everything was happening.
L you may have been the scariest birth story I've ever encountered (notice you have no younger siblings) but you have such a light in you that only God Himself can give. We are so proud of all the accomplishments you have made. You read at a higher level than you should. Math you are probably doing the same. Life has thrown you a ton of lemons baby boy but you just look at them and say, "eh, lemons" and don't even bother to make lemonade. You make your own way in this world. You are kind and loving. Sweet and the funniest little guy I know.
God knew right whose house you belonged too. You admire Sissy. Love your Daddy and put up with all mommies kisses.
Happy 8th birthday (not my baby) anymore. We love you.
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Here is what happened 8 years ago (yesterday and today): - again pretend you are reading this tomorrow -
Eight years ago yesterday (today) was a Wed. night and I went to the hospital to be observed because my blood pressure was really high. I had an appt. on Thursday for an NST (non-stress test) and to see the dr. at 10 and 10:50 am.
I was hooked up to the NST machine and things were fine. The baby’s heartrate wasn’t doing a whole of lot of reacting when they were moving, but still fine. Then all of a sudden the heartrate drops off. I thought the baby had moved. So, I waited and no one came. You see the NST room is in the back of the office where no one is and I get forgotten about. I tried moving it around and finally decided to go find a nurse asst. She came back in and couldn’t find it. She got another nurse asst. and she couldn’t find it. They got the Doppler, still couldn’t find it.
They take me up front to see the doctor. She gets out the Doppler and can’t find the heartrate. She brings the ultrasound machine into the room and calls the other doctor into the room. Of course by now I am crying. The other doctor came in the room. They were trying to whisper over my head. Then I am not sure if they could find the heartbeat or not, finally they did and began counting. The heartrate what I know now was in the 70’s.
By now they are calling 911. I had to get my cell phone and call P and my mom. P was taking M to the doctors because she was so sick. I had to track him down in the waiting room and to have them tell him to come because they were rushing me to the hospital by ambulance. Then I remembered to call back (even in the midst of craziness) to tell them I wasn’t going to the hospital we had planned on but to the one closest to my doctor’s office.
They called 911. They put me in an ambulance and we had a police escort to the hospital. I found out later that my blod pressure in the ambulance was 200/150.
I got to the hospital at approximately 12:00 pm and our baby BOY was born at 12:10 pm. He was born on Thursday, November 3rd at 12:10 pm. He weighed 8 lbs. 9 oz. and was 19 inches long. He has a head full of dark hair with natural highlights!
When the doctor came out to inform P & M the baby had been born, she had hugged M and said you have a beautiful baby brother (we didn't know what we were having), then she hugged P and began to cry and kept saying "I can't get it out". In that moment P thought I had passed away. But, she was just
so overwhelmed by the entire events of the day that she had to relieve some of the stress. And we'll, she's a woman too.
God was there with us that day. He protected L from all the harm that could have come to him. He protected me throughout the surgery and in the ambulence where my blood pressure was extremely high.
That's what happened 8 years ago today (tomorrow).
Even on the bad days when ASD is in high doses in our house, we can easily recall the events of this day and remember that L could EASILY not be here. Or he could have cerebal palsy. Or many other things could have went wrong that day.
L, you are the funniest, smartest, sweetest, cutest boy I know!! And yes, to quote anything you memorize (lately the Christmas program) but just a little reminder from the Veggie Tales God made you special and He loves you very much. And so do we!!!
Friday, November 1, 2013
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Friday, October 11, 2013
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
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Monday, August 26, 2013
Friday, August 23, 2013
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Saturday, August 10, 2013
The biggest thing I am learning.....QUIT WEIGHING MYSELF!!! I'll only get disappointed!!! YIKES!
Ok, so what did I tell you all, Fridays are my weigh in day, right? So, what did I do? That's right, weighed myself today. Bad idea. Some how I managed to gain some weight. Back to 190.2....sigh. Could be water...could be that s'more I had with the kids last night (even though I counted every last calorie and fat gram I ate!!).
So, what am I learning? Only weigh myself once a week. It will be my weight for the week. It is the lowest you are going to be. Your weight ebbs and flows like the ocean. It will go up and down all week. You are being counterproductive to yourself by weighing yourself EVERY day and only hurting yourself (especially at this stage of my weight loss) by looking at the scale.
So, my new challenge.....only Fridays. Unless I am at the doctors and well, then it's just plain unavoidable.
So, what are you still learning post-op?
Friday, August 9, 2013
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
EDITED: I HAD to correct the content Siri had wrong. Although, I got a little chuckle at hoe horrible some of it was!!!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Monday, July 8, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
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Thursday, June 13, 2013
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
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Thursday, May 23, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
This is not a choice for everyone. No!! You have to know what you are getting into before you jump both feet into this world of WLS. But for me, this is WORKING!!!
Do I have frustrating times?? ABSOLUTELY!! Do I feel like giving up and eating whatever I want? Uh, yeah, I have issues with food....plus it tastes good. But, then I remember all the work it took to get here. The months of waiting, the hours of appointments, the dollars spent, the pre-op diet (oh goodness the pre-op diet), the post-op diet....
IT IS WORTH IT!!!
I have a BAD habit of weighing myself everyday. I wish I didn't, but I do. That being said, 2 days ago I was down almost 112 lbs. Yesterday back up 111 lbs. FRUSTRATING!! I follow the rules (mostly...I do pretty well with most of them, I'm not perfect, no one is, but I do pretty well) why, why, why?!?!?!? Today get on the scale (oh several times just to make sure I'm seeing what I'm seeing) 113 lbs. down!! Must of have some water weight yesterday!!
113 lbs. I've lost 113 lbs. 25 in pre-op from Feb 1 - May 21st of last year and 88 since May 21st of last year!! I have 2 weeks until my bandiversary!
I love my Lap Band.
Hey if you are stopping by and you are a regular reader, become a follower of my blog, I'll follow you back!
I love reading comments, and replying too, except I can't figure out why my comment section doesn't allow for replies on other comments. Any thoughts those of you who are regular bloggers?
Hey and just remember, I have had some tough battles through this year. Some major plateaus and instead of giving up like I normally would, I pressed through. SOOOOO thankful for my Lap Band.
YOU CAN DO IT!!
Monday, May 6, 2013
She's newly banded (who sounds like she's doing amazing) and started a new blog!
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Sunday, May 5, 2013
Weight wise I'm doing well. I'm down just shy of 112 lbs. So close to my next goal!!!!
My hubby is doing well with his recent change. Nothing too major. He just has made a few adjustments since May 1st and has already lost 4 lbs. Doesn't seem fair, right?!?!! I'm happy for him!!!
All is well on our front. I have another post-op appt for my hysterectomy on the 13th. Still having a couple of issues.
Ok leaving you with my newest and favorite thing, Greek dip for veggies. Plain Greek yogurt, add 2 powdered envelopes of ranch!! One just isn't enough for me to get over that fat free yogurt taste!!! Love it!!! And it's high in protein.
Also, because we are peanut/tree nut free I have the hardest time finding protein bars. Balance has two. Cookie dough and chocolate craze. Manufactured on equipment but no nuts. The sugar is high, I wish it was 5 g of fat vs the 7 g it is, but it tastes good for the day when you are in a hurry and need something!!!!
Friday, April 26, 2013
So far today I've had a half a cup of egg substitute with a quarter cup of reduced fat shredded cheese, a cup of raspberry chocolate truffle coffee with a 1/3 cup skim milk and now I'm working a 1/2 cup of mashed potatoes with 1/4 cup of the same cheese with 1/4 cup of fat free plain Greek yogurt that had 2 packets of dry ranch seasoning mixed into it.
I'm restricted with these potatoes. Yeah :)
So I'm taking my dear ol' sweet time.
One thing I will say is man, my belly got really bruised from my fill yesterday. That I believe is the first time. Bummer :(
My husband told me as of May 1st he's going to stop drinking pop and start watching better what he's eating. Which I'm glad for him but I never wanted to pressure him. I know it never did me any good to have someone say to me you need to lose weight. It is also going to help me to not have his junk food in the house because quite frankly it tastes really good! But he told me not to bother him or to ask him about it because he doesn't want me to become "one of those people".
Happy Friday y'all!!!!
Thursday, April 25, 2013
2. Today was only 1 cc but she said that was aggressive for her on a Thursday because she would not be able to unfill me over the weekend. I'm glad she realizes I know me and my band.
3. I like going to my clinic. They make me feel like a rock star bandster.
4. I laid out my big plan to my NP today thinking she'd shoot it down but I think it went well.
5. A couple of NSV's. First, my collar bones are starting to come out. Next, I was able to buy our baseball team's "girly" shirt and it fits. Lastly, I saw a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while and received a bunch of nice comments.
6. Unfortunately the reason I saw a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while is because two people from the church I grew up in passed away. They were both phenomenal examples of Christians, spouses and parents. Awesome people!!!!
7. My daughter made the honor roll again!!! Way to go M!!!
8. We are now officially the small group leaders of our group at church. We are also part of our kids church ministry team which is what we have always served in. So working with grown ups is brand new :)
9. I am looking forward to my next goal at about 7.5 lbs!!!!!
10. My biggest goal is about 37.5 lbs away!!! Here I come!!
Bonus - here are some pics of P and L putting out a blue light bulb for Autism Awareness and some other pics like mastery of chopsticks, us in our Doctor Who shirts and missing tooth :)