Then I thought about it.
I'm getting frustrated. REALLY frustrated. I'm a scale addict, I've already admitted that to you. So, when I don't see slight movements I get frustrated. Now mind you I'm happy there have been no gain, but no loses either.
I "know" the average weight loss for a bandster is 1-2 lbs a week. My weight loss has been the following:
25 lbs in pre-op
39 in 13 weeks since surgery
So, I'm averaging 3 lbs a week weight loss, above the average.
Why am I so freaked out every little stall I see? I'm always thinking I'm going to be the fat girl for the rest of my life and that despite having the surgery and doing all this, it's going to be like everything else and still not work. Ever feel like that? It scares me.
I KNOW I have to pick up my game in the exercise dept. my problem is finding the time right now with our family situation. I know once school starts (and I'm not working again-maybe) I can go as soon as they walk out the door. No excuses.
I think one more thing that I am scared about is my band itself. I did a TON of research before I got this thing so I could understand what was going to happen. I feel like I understand well. I am thinking my understanding of restriction is what has me scared. Am I too tough?? I don't feel like I have enough restriction. So, tomorrow I'm getting my last fill for free. I don't want to be over filled, but I do want this band to do its job. But I need to do my job too. Can someone tell my butt to get to the gym more often??!!