Wednesday, March 20, 2013

In Tears....

I'm in bed recouping (what else is new, right?). And I'm blogging from my phone.

So, I'm watching a new show from ABC called Splash thinking I'm just going to laugh at these celebrities making idiots out of themselves. Instead, I'm laying here in tears.

Louie Anderson, an American comedian, is on the show. They show the first day of training and how humiliating it was for him at 416 lbs for him not to be able to get himself out of the water. Then 6 weeks later on the show he did a dive off the 7 meter high board.

I took a couple of things away from this. One, I hope to goodness he gets help for his weight. The way he was holding his hands behind his back during the judging reminded me of how I used to hold my hands. So that leads me to number two. I don't ever, EVER want to go back!!!

i know this will always be a road I have to travel. I will always want to eat. I ate cookies already this morning if I'm being honest. But, I have got to remember that not eating the right things and not eating the right portions got me 107.4 lbs heavier than I am right now!!!

I don't ever want to hold my hands like that again......


  1. You are amazing and so right - it hurts to see other people struggling and to really KNOW where they are at. It's also good to see and remember why we don't want to go back there. Hugs and keep feeling better every day.

  2. YES YES YES! I had a really hard time this weekend with my girlfriend who is heavy. She has lost before and wants to lose again and I was a reminder of where I was and where I don't want to be. But I felt for her so hard because that WAS me. *hugs*

  3. You know I never even thought to watch that show to see the journey. Just thought it was all about diving...I may watch it now....