Thursday, March 4, 2010

It's time to quit playing around.....

I posted something on my FB page today. I read of yet another earthquake, this time in Taiwan. When I heard this it draws me back to the Gospels where it speaks of wars, earthquakes....people, we are getting close.

I know those of us that were raised in a Pentecostal environment we have always heard about the Rapture and how it's getting close, but man, I can't help to think we are getting close.

Now mind you God's time is so different than ours, but what if this is it? What if the time on this Earth is wrapping up? Am I sure that God would welcome me into His kingdom?

Often, I know I fall short. Yes, I go to church. Yes, I love God. But, is my life what it should be? No. I don't know. But, see that's the problem. I should know without a doubt.

We all sin. We ALL sin. And, no sin is bigger than another, well, except one. I have such a hard time with that. I know we all do, but God is a black and white God. It either is, or it isn't.

I have so much work on myself to do. I should say, I need God to do so much work in me. My heart feels like it has gotten so hardened. It needs softening. My devotion and prayer time. Oh my goodness, does it need work.

I often feel alone in this walk, like I am the only one who worries am I going to make it? The sad thing is that I had these same thoughts as a teenager and thought once I am a grown up, I will be ok. Geez, I am going to be 35 years old this year, you can't get more grown up than that!

My heart loves the Lord. I am concerned for others, especially family and friends that don't know the Lord. But, I feel like I am short on what I should be.....

Am I alone?